Reflections on the Loss of a Tooth

How to say goodbye in the midst of my agony. 

by | Mar 10, 2017

As the oral surgeon’s deft prying pulled out the tooth, I was prepared for the physical pain, but surprised by an emotional pang of loss.  Was this departure of such a small part of me the cause?  Or was it the knowledge that I would soon be rid of the decade-long annoyance that ultimately became decay and pain, the death of my bête-noire?  And what of those who must have an organ removed, a limb amputated?

This tooth, a front one, had been integral to my visage, my presence; opened the skin of so many thousands of apples and teased the bosoms of lovers. It wasn’t ever perfect, except in those innocent days when I tore open sugar packets and poured the contents into my mouth.  So its demise was a wretched one, and it didn’t give up easily.

Once abscess, now absence

The surgeon said she expected to have to pull out many shattered fragments before she could clean the foundation bone, and this is how it ended.  She on my right, perhaps unaware she was pressing her warm body into my forearm; assistant was on my left, lightly grasping a sneering snake of small hose hissing, hovering over my tongue.

I had to say goodbye in the midst of my agony.  Goodbye, you rebellious soldier, who served me so well for nearly six decades!  I’d miss you, and in your stead would soon be a titaniam-posted counterfeit of dubious merit and no equity.  I could only hope that one would do its duty–just break the apple skins.  And smile.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

John Elliott

Founder and Editor-in-Chief for insigh magazine, John is an artist to the core. After 18 years as a creative director and agency owner in the advertising industry, he joined the U.S. State Department in late 2010 as a Foreign Service Officer. His Foreign Service assignments included Washington, D.C.; Jeddah, Saudi Arabia; and Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, as well as covering the entire Western Hemisphere as Senior Regional Policy Advisor for the Secretary of State’s Office of Global Women’s Issues.

In early 2010, he founded AidWEST a humanitarian and medical care non-governmental organization and served as project leader to help Haiti recover from their devastating earthquake. Upon retirement from the State Department in 2022, he resumed directing AidWEST, which operates a school and youth club in the imperiled and impoverished nation. He currently resides with his family in Central Florida, USA, where he is active in the fine arts sphere and as a youth and military veteran mentor.

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